Chapter 1
"I, Walter Crofter, being of sound
mind...." Bah, this is garbage! I tossed my quill on the
parchment sitting in front of me. People may question my sanity, but they
should hear the whole story before judging me. I’m sitting here, now, at
the age of 67, trying to write this down and figure out how to tell everything.
I don’t know if I'll ever get it right, though. Too many secrets to go
around. However, this is my last chance to offer the truth before I die. The
doctors say it's malaria, yet I'll be fine. Perhaps. But if the
malaria doesn't kill me, my guilt indeed will. Maybe if people know the
facts surrounding my life, everyone will have a better understanding.
I dipped the tip in the inkwell again, and wrote:
I was born September 2, 1588, and named Walter.
I didn’t belong in this Crofter family, who were storekeepers in Portishead and
not farmers as our surname might indicate to those who study this sort of thing.
My parents were courteous and even obsequious to our patrons. Yet they
received little or no respect. The ladies came to us to buy their
groceries or the fabric for their dresses, but as seemly as they comported
themselves, and some even called my father 'friend,' it was not out of regard
for him. I was forced to run. Well, "forced" might put
too harsh a point on it, like that of a sword, but others can judge for
themselves.
By the time I reached the age of 12, I'd found
another family that was more "me". They weren’t rich, but they
were comfortable. The parents had several children, including a girl my
age who was named Anna. Within two years, we had come to know each other
quite well, and were getting to know each other even better. Her father caught
us getting too close to knowing each other better yet, and showed up at my
parents' house with a musket in his hand, telling them if I ever came near his
daughter again, he'd use it on me--and then on them.
I paused to dip the pen and wipe my brow.
Even though I was wearing a light cotton shirt, it was bloody hot in early
August in Cadaques. My wife, Maria, entered the room and looked at my
perspiring face and what I had just written. Between fits of laughter,
she smiled at me with wide lips and said, "You can't possibly write this.
You're not the only boy a doting father ever had to chase away. Nobody
cares about this sort of thing."
"It will at least give a pulse to this writing," I replied.
"It's too boring to say I left because I was mismatched with my own
family, so much so that I was positive someone had switched me at birth.
Or that I thought I was ready for more in life than what I could find at home.
Nobody would read that, not even me."
"I agree, so tell the story that really means something. All of
it." She sighed softly and placed the parchment she had been reading
on the desk in front of me and kissed my cheek. The gleam in her eyes
shed 20 years off her age and reminded me of a much gentler time. God, how
much I love her.
I said, "Before I met you, I spent my life like a square peg trying to
fit in a round hole. I’m just trying to make my story more
interesting."
"I’ve heard the accounts of your life before
you met me. Or I should say found me. It was anything but boring. So,
if you insist on including in the story lines like those you just wrote, make
sure they're the only ones. If you don't, I'll consider adding my own
material." She winked. "You know I’ve had good
sources."
She turned and walked away, laughing loudly as I
called after her, "Yes, dear."
I dipped the quill and put it to parchment again.:
In my earliest days, I remember my father, Geoff, being a bit forceful with other people. I also recall my brother Gerald, nearly five years my senior, and myself being happy. Or at least as contented as two boys could be who were growing up in the late 1500s in England, and working every day since their seventh birthdays. It was a time when boys were earning coin as soon as they could lift or carry things. The money could never be for themselves, however, but for the parents to help pay the bills.
In my earliest days, I remember my father, Geoff, being a bit forceful with other people. I also recall my brother Gerald, nearly five years my senior, and myself being happy. Or at least as contented as two boys could be who were growing up in the late 1500s in England, and working every day since their seventh birthdays. It was a time when boys were earning coin as soon as they could lift or carry things. The money could never be for themselves, however, but for the parents to help pay the bills.
Father lived as a crofter should. He was an
upright man and sold vegetables off a cart like his grandfather did, and he
also dabbled in selling fine fabric for the ladies of status.
One afternoon, when I was eight years old, my
brother came home and got into a heated debate with my father about something.
When I ran to see what was the matter, they hushed around me, so I never got the
full gist of the argument. But whatever it was about, it was serious, and
the bickering continued behind my back for five straight days. When I
awoke on the morning of the sixth day, Gerald was no longer at home. And
he never came back.
Soon afterwards, my father lost enthusiasm for
his business and became generally passive. I assumed this was because of
Gerald's leaving, and only on occasion would I see flashes of my dad's former
self.
At the start of my tenth year, our family moved
closer to London.
We rented the bottom floor of a three-story building in which
several families lived in the upper floors. My father said we relocated
because he needed to be closer to more business opportunities. But my mom
didn't believe he'd made the right decision, since he was now selling
food out of a cart and not inside a storefront. One night, she
greeted him at the door when he came home. She was wearing a frown and a
dress that had seen better days.
"Did you bring in any decent money?"
she asked him before he had time to take off his coat.
"I told you, it will take some time.
It's not easy to make good money these days."
"Especially when you let the ladies walk all
over you."
"I know, I know. But what am I to do
when they aren't running up to me to buy what I'm selling?"
"You at least bring home some food for us."
My father had carried in a bag under his arm.
"It's not much, a few carrots and some
celery." He handed her the bag.
"What about meat?"
"We're not ready for meat yet."
"That’s true enough," my mother said.
"But you should at least try to feed your family. Walter's growing,
and so are our other children."
"Leave me be, woman. I'm doing the
best I can for now." He sat in his chair, leaned his head against
the wall, and fell asleep.
That same debate played out between my parents
for the next two years. Except for the summer months, when food was
plentiful; then the arguments subsided. But for the rest of the year,
especially during the winter, the same discussions about money continued on a
daily basis, and they were often quite heated. I lost two younger
siblings during those two years. One during my tenth winter and the other
during my eleventh winter. Neither of the children was older than six
months. I always suspected hunger as the primary cause of their deaths.
Just before my twelfth birthday, my father
started taking me with him when he went to work. My closest living
sibling was nearly six and not feeling well most of the time, and the family
needed the money I could bring in by helping my father, who was bland and
wishy-washy, particularly when selling fabrics. I had no idea what he was
like before, but in my mind his lethargy explained why our family was barely
making ends meet. Our lives had become much harder since Gerald left, and
part of me blamed him. I'm going to thrash him if I ever see him again
and teach him a lesson about family responsibility.
It took me less than a week to realize that the
people my father was dealing with, as with those in Portishead, had no respect
for him. They regularly talked down to him. Rather than asking the
price, they regularly paid what they wanted to pay. And he took it without a
quibble. And when he tried to curry favor, he would never get it.
His customers looked upon him as a whipping board, at least that's how it
seemed to me.
I remember when we got home in the dark after a
long day of work in late November, and my mother started in on Dad.
"Well? Have you got the money for me
to buy food tomorrow?"
"A little. Here." He fished
a guinea from his pocket.
“A guinea? That's it? That won’t feed
us for a day. You've got to start working harder. With what you
earn and what I bring in sewing clothes, we can barely pay the rent, and there
is nothing left over to heat this place. And it's going to get colder,
Geoff."
"I know, Mildred, I know. I’m trying
as hard as I can."
“You haven’t worked hard since Sir Walter Raleigh
left favor. You can't wait for him forever."
"He'll get favor back. And when he
does, I’ll be right there helping him. You’ll see, we’ll be fine
again."
She groaned. I was aware that this was not
the first time my mother had heard this from my father. It's great talk
from a man trying to get ahead. But after several years of the same song,
it loses its credibility. She had enjoyed respectability in the early
days when my father could grab hold of his father's coattails, the then revered
Sir Walter Raleigh, and it was hard not having this luxury now. She
hadn’t planned to be satisfied with being a shopkeeper’s wife, and she wasn't
even that, at present. She changed the subject, not her tone.
"I overheard the ladies gossiping on the
street today. They were talking about seeing Gerald's likeness on a
'Wanted' poster. A 'Wanted' poster, Geoff. There’s a warrant out
for our son’s arrest.
What are we going to do? What can we do?"
What are we going to do? What can we do?"
My father stared at the wall. "Nothing.
He's an adult. He'll have to work it out for himself."
I watched quietly as my mother cried herself to
sleep, her head on my father's shoulder. No matter how bad things got,
they loved each other and wanted their lives to be better,the way I was often
told they were before my birth. Maybe this is why I wanted to get away
from them as soon as I could.
I didn't usually watch my parents fall asleep.
But, that night I did. And, after they were sound asleep, I left. I
had no plans. I didn't know where I was going. I just left in
middle of what was a dark, chilly night.
I could hear the dogs barking around me as I
scurried along the roadside. It felt as if they were yelping at me and
coming towards me. I began running, faster than I'd ever sprinted in my
life, my speed assisted by my sense of fear. Every time I heard a dog, or
an owl, or any other animal, or even my own heavy breathing, my pace increased
until I was exhausted and had to stop. This continued throughout the
night until the sky started to lighten and I found a grove of overhanging
bushes and crawled inside for some sleep.
I scavenged for food during the day and swiped a
few pieces of fruit from merchants along the way. This became my means of
subsistence. I left a coin when I could, as I'd pick up an
occasional odd job, but I was always out of money. I also tried begging,
and while I did survive on the street, I found life difficult. Yet for
nearly two years I stayed with this vagabond existence before deciding to make
my way to the sea. Too bad my internal compass wasn’t any good.
Turns out I was moving more to the west than to the south. But before long
I was on the shores of Portsmouth.
And my life changed forever.
__________________________________________________________ Robert L. Bacon
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